PUNCHING BABIES

Seriously...I would punch a baby for a soda right now! UGH!! Stupid goals, and stupid friends, and stupid February! I have gotten a headache every day since the first! HOLY HELL!!!

I'll be alright.

Seriously, I will feel better very soon.

Right after I down a soda, or main-line some heroin.

Not really.

I have been sleeping better since I don't rinse my mouth after brushing my teeth every night with Mt. Dew. Or wake up and crack a cold one...or warm one...I'm not picky! I'm sure I will get over the cravings, and the itching and hallucinations will stop.

GOALS, GOALS, GOALS

So, a few super sweet friends of mine have started a fun little challenge for the year 2010. I'm a little behind, so I'm starting mine in February. They make a new goal for themselves each month, and basically give something up for a whole month. My friend Erin wasn't allowed to buy herself any clothes for the month of January. Shocking...I know! So I'm jumping on her band wagon and along with our friend Bananas, we are giving up soda and desserts for the month of February.

Today was day one.


I have a HUGE headache!


I hate coffee, so soda is really the only place I get my caffeine. I drink, on average, at least 3 Mt. Dew's a day! Today was rough! I had my morning Mate' Latte from Woods, and that is loaded with caffeine, so I was pretty good, until like 2. Got some Excedrin for my headache with has caffeine in it, so I'm pretty good to go. But I have a feeling I'm gonna Be Princess Pissy tomorrow!!

Wish me luck, actually, wish everyone around me luck!

TIME TRAVEL

Nothing makes me feel better about getting what I want, but quickly realizing that I've grown...and I don't really want that anymore. Nothing makes me feel better than knowing everything happens for a reason, and that really...letting go is the best answer to my questions. Nothing makes me happier than knowing great friends trump an average boyfriend any day!! Nothing makes me happier than getting a text from one of my amazing friends that makes me laugh my ass off!! Nothing makes me happier than knowing I will obtain all my goals with a little hard work. Nothing makes me happier than this fall coming up, because school will be over and I will be well on my way to starting my forever. Nothing makes me happier knowing in fact, you did do me a favor, and I'm honestly better off. Nothing makes me happier than hearing our song on the radio, and it doesn't' affect me..at all...good or bad! Nothing makes me happier knowing that I'm exactly where I'm supposed to me, even if I'm impatient, and don't love it right now. Nothing makes me happier than what my future holds. I can't even WAIT for the FALL!!!

LIFE...I EFFING HEART YOU!!

Last of my finals tomorrow for Technical! Trying not to stress too much! Failing is NOT an option. I'm definitely ready for some more changes! Feels like life isn't normal unless I'm flying at a zillion miles an hour. I'm so excited to see what life has in store for me. Last year was fun, TONS of fun, with Lot's of lessons I could have done without learning. Right now I'm just really focusing on school, and getting everything just where it needs to be. Always taking one step forward, and two steps back.

Nothing makes me happier than Karma. Everything you do good and bad, comes back to you ten fold. I've seen a lot of people reap those benefits or consequences. People come and go, real true friends stay a while and hold your hair when your puking your guts out. I have met some truly amazing people in my life, some new great ones at school, and rekindled with a few old ones. Is it a coincidence when people keep coming back into your life? Are they there to teach you something? Are they there for more? Trying to stay positive and be open to all the fun little signs from the universe. Just working on Letting it be. Me and patience are NOT BFFS!

CHEERS!

So, over half way done with technical at school. Learning all about color, and perms and all that fun stuff! I'm loving every single minute of it! Making some amazing new friends, who make me laugh and smile all day long! Oh the joys of laughter. I'm truly right where I belong.

Everything in my world is falling perfectly into place. Letting go of drama and the past, and getting super duper excited for new adventures. Rekindling old friendships that could turn into more???? Setting out on a lot of super great new adventures, and living my life's motto to the fullest! I'm completely content in everything right now. I'm beyond excited about who I've become and all the lessons I've learned along the way.

I don't know why I continue to let people surprise me, but they do. And eventually, in time, everyone shows their true colors, and they are not always as good as first expected. All I know is that if you're true to yourself, and real with everyone around you, life is golden.

I'm doing the Rock and Roll half marathon again this year, and training starts this week. I haven't ran since the 15K in September. Life has just been WAY to busy. So I'm adding yet another "to do" to my list! I'm gonna rock the shit outta that half! Hoping to do another run in Eugene this year, seems I like being in that town...hmmmm.

So, Cheers to yet another amazing year gone by...no regrets...no setbacks! No LOOKING BACK! Just keep on swimming!

EMERALD CITY STATE OF MIND

Finals week!! Yup, I've made it through my first 6 weeks of design at Gene Juarez! It has been everything I've dreamed of and more. I Love every single minute of it. I love all the people in my class, and have made some super great friends!! Next week we start technical which is all the chemical stuff like perms, color, foils, and relaxers. SOOO PUMPED!

Just have to pass my finals now!

I'm loving being in Seattle 3 days a week. Honestly, I really want to be living there right now, but I need to be patient with it. Don't get me wrong, I love Bellingham, and enjoy all my people here, I just really feel it's time for a change. I've got lot's of options, and I'm just really keeping them all open.

Living up to my motto of "JUST LET IT BE" Life is truly what you make of it, and mine is going to be golden! I've chosen to take the path less traveled by like Robert Frost once said and it has made all the difference.

It's amazing all that I've learned about myself in the past 5 years. I'm truly content in the person I've become. I've learned to base my happiness on myself and no one else. I've learned to read the signs and let them guide me. I've learned that if you put good out to the universe, you will get good back. I'm beyond blessed in my life, and I'm thrilled to see all the fun new things this world has in store. Nothing holding me down, nothing stopping me either!

I'm truly living an Emerald City State of Mind!

PATIENCE IS NOT MY VIRTUE

This week will consist of getting all packed up! I'm moving out of my AMAZING condo...it's bittersweet. I'm moving in with my parents...I know...to save some $$$ until the big move to Seattle. I will save a lot, and they will be there to help with Isaiah and what not while I'm working and going to school. I just keep thinking "it's only for a little while"

I am NOT a patient person. I want what I want, when I want it, and that's usually now. I don't like waiting, and I hate when things happen that throw my plans off. I FINALLY have a nice little plan set in place, and it's been a while for me to get that. Someone once told me change only happens when the fear of staying the same exceeds the fear of acting on it. So true in my case.

I'm beyond excited for my new adventure. I'm also beyond scared! Nothing like throwing caution into the wind, and saying F-It, let's get it done! But failure is not an option. It's not like I'm scared of a little hard work. I just don't want to look back and regret what I'm doing.

It's not as easy without you here cheering me on...